4:12am Ramblings lol

Hello Earthlings.
Feel like I haven't wrote an entry on my blog in much too long.
I scribble & jot thoughts & words down quite often but I never manage to have the mental clarity to actually put it on here.
I've been told my love for social media is due to how easy it is to channel creative energy through out it.
To think that at one point in time, all these thoughts we have on a minute to minute basis, were just stagnant in our mind. We had no way to tweet, post, update or text our many thoughts.
I've been extremely successful & productive in my personal life lately.
To make it brief I recently turned 24 years of age. GASP!
Yes I still can't believe I'm 24 either.
An even more shocking in this day & age is that I recently had the privilege to celebrate my 1 year wedding anniversary. Yes. An ENTIRE year.
In generation past, that might not be impressive but in an era where if its broke, we don't fix it, we throw it away.... A whole year of marriage & children is quite a feat!
So don't mind me if I seem preoccupied, I am. Maybe not so much in the professional aspect but the foundation I'm setting is Beautiful. Je'Taime Pequenos Monstros.

Missed Calls.

Lets fill you in.
I almost died last week.
No that's not a joke.

Lol
Almost dying puts certain things into perspective.
What's important & what's not.
Who still holds your emotions & who no longer does.
What have you accomplished so far?
& what would they say at your funeral?

Deep shit right?
Well that's what happens.
I came to realize that I've live quite a bit considering my 24th birthday is coming up on November 23rd.
Maybe if I talked to a seasoned world traveler they would laugh when I say that I feel I've lived.
Maybe because in my mind LIVING means giving your life meaning.
The meaning of my life are my kids & family. So far my babies are amazing. So If that would have left the earth that day I would feel semi accomplished.
Maybe my mind set is off but money, the dream job, fancy cars & designer labels are things you can't take with you & in some way, your kids meet up with you in "heaven" later in life.
Am I thinking too much into this?
Maybe yes.
But the look & texts my husband sent me before & after the paramedics came to get me, while I was rocking my son in a puddle of blood & the face he made when he walked into my hospital room, confirmed to me that he loved me.
I have a lot of LIFE left to live but the moral of this deep & self rambling story is: Your time here isn't promised. Your on borrowed time. The rug could be pulled from under you at any point. MAKE SURE the STORY that replays back to you at the END of your Journey is WORTH WATCHING.

#SkinnyBitchesFitInCadillacTrunks

I'm baccccccckkkk.
& handy with the rope.

Came up with a concept for a Photoshoot that was quite outta the box.

Just because you listen to 2Chainz doesn't make you gangster.
Talk a big game, expect big things.

Remember Skinny Bitches Fit In Cadillac Trunks & I look faboo in all black.

Seems like all the wrong people are saying the wrong things.
But then again talk is cheap, actions are #Expensive
& so is a Ransom.

(Make Up/Concept/Styling: @KarlaVavavoom
Photography: @Kidyosh )

Misunderstood & I don't have 2 F**ks to give.

At times I feel as though I'm disliked by people because they dont understand me.

I'm not one to think much of what people say. I tend to act freely & do as I please.
Is it because I'm weird? Or because I don't do as people want me to.

Everyone told me not to marry. To play the field & work on my career.
Let me explain one thing:
When a great thing, scratch that.
When a marvelous person comes along and offers you an infinite amount of love for you & your daughter,
A real woman can acknowledge that.
I take responsibility for all my decision.
But I'm by far happier now than I have ever been in the past.
I'm Karla Va Va Voom.
Unapologetically.
Curves. Big Mouth. Weirdness.
Blunt Honesty & ALL.

Valentina Ballerina is now 3.

To think that it's been 3 years since I was blessed with Valentina still amazes.
Amidst post training, tea parties, & life lessons, I feel as though Valentina has taught me the most important one:

Time is a gift, & one that goes by quickly.

Remember to always appreciate those around you.
Last month I had a Cancer scare due to having Ovarian problems. The thought of not being able to be their for both Valentina, Emery & my husband scared me beyond belief.

As of lately ive realized that all the little things, the good days & bad, are still days your given none the less.

So to be able to stand here & see my daughter turn 3 & realize how intelligent, beautiful & full of personality she is.. Is the ultimate gift.

Thank you Valentina for everything you've taught me.
DaddyTy & myself will try our hardest to make you the best person you can be.

They only Love you when they Need you.

Why is it moths only come to the flame when it's lit?
Yet when it's not flickering the moths can fly by & never notice it?

This happen in humans also.
People only want your company when your relevant & successful.

Now if that's the case, make sure that the moment you do hit your prime you have the RIGHT people surrounding you, who truly have your best interest at heart.

Remember, never bite the hand that feeds you or the heart that heals you.

Being given love is a blessing & a
opportunity that not everyone has a been offered.

So remember this, when your "Popular" & your flame is bright, all kinds of insects & moths will come to you.
But make sure your light is attracting the right ones.

Everyone LOVES you when they Need you. But when hungry or need not everyone will Feed you.

The truth about marriage

Now when your picking out a wedding gown & he's getting fitted for a tux, no one is going to tell you the truth about marriage.

For one reason & one reason only.
Marriage takes hard work.
You sign on to stand by someone with flaws & hope try accept yours.

In the old days people use to stay married for years & years til one person buried another, NOW people go through spouses like I go through socks.
And I have TONS of fuzzy socks. Lol

No but seriously I believe that in this day & age, where everything has been made so easy & you can see if the "grass is supposibly greener" on the other side with a click of a button... The thought of standing by ONE person forever seems ridiculous.

Sometimes people do Marry someone hoping they would change or they just marry the Wrong person.

& that's just fine. I Understand that.
Trust me.

Marriage is promising someone you'll fight by their side, and at times you'll fight them. But at the end of the day your a team, you swore to each other till death do you part.

There will be days when you can't stand your mate, the way he folds his napkin will irk you, or if he doesn't put the cap on the toothpaste.
But marriage is bigger than that.

Remember all the reasons why you walked down to the alter with the person you chose.

There will be days when the spark isn't as bright or the butterflies aren't flapping as hard as usual.

At the end of the Day, you love eachother. I'm blessed with a husband who maybe a pain in the butt at times, but even when things get tough, he reminds me that we promised to fight together.

We never say the dreaded "D" word in our house. (div--ce)
That's not an option in our house.
We have 2 babies who love us & think we're the disney prince & princess in the movies.
And We plan on keeping it that way

No matter how hard things might get. I swore to stand by his side, & him by mine.
That's all that matters.